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Rancho Cucamonga
When I return to Southern California, to the inland empire, I feel at home. In my body. It’s not an emotional thing. It’s not a relief. I just remember it. The air. Dry and warm. Soft even, with smog. Air … Continue reading
Posted in travel, what it's like now
Tagged AA, AA meetings, addiction, Alcoholics Anonymous, alcoholism, California, home, Rancho Cucamonga, recovery, sobriety, Southern California
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far
Before I went to rehab, I went to AA to hear people’s stories. I would listen to people who ended up homeless, all of their “yets” having by then transpired. They talked about shooting up under a bridge, selling themselves, … Continue reading
Posted in what it was like
Tagged AA, AA meetings, addiction, alcoholics, Alcoholics Anonymous, alcoholism, drinking, meeting, meetings, recovery, rehab, sober, sobriety, trauma
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Minnesota
I went back to Minnesota last week, to visit the treatment center I went to a year and a half ago. When I was in treatment, it was April and it was still snowing. All the branches were bare. In … Continue reading
Posted in travel, what happened, what it's like now
Tagged AA, AA meetings, addiction, alcoholics, Alcoholics Anonymous, alcoholism, meeting, meetings, Minneapolis, Minnesota, recovery, rehab, sobriety, travel, treatment
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Cancún
I went to Cancún, Mexico 3 months out of rehab. I had booked the trip with my boyfriend and two friends, impulsively, and there were no refunds. It was low season for tourists, or rather, it was not spring break, … Continue reading
Posted in travel, what it's like now
Tagged AA, AA meetings, addiction, alcoholics, Alcoholics Anonymous, alcoholism, Cancun, drinking, DUI, meetings, Mexico, recovery, sobriety, travel
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Long Beach, CA
I walked down the middle of the street with my friend, who I think of as my brother, who I used to live with, in college, when I started drinking. We were walking slow, because he had just had knee surgery … Continue reading
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Tagged AA, AA meetings, addiction, alcoholics, Alcoholics Anonymous, alcoholism, drinking games, Long Beach, recovery, sobriety
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for my sister, part I
A few weeks ago, my sister sent me an email about my one year. She said she loved me and I said it, too. I hadn’t heard from her in a while. I left her a voicemail on her birthday … Continue reading
Posted in what it's like now
Tagged 9th step, AA meetings, addiction, Alcoholics Anonymous, alcoholism, amends, family, gratitude, meetings, ninth step, recovery, rehab, siblings, sister, sober, sobriety, Southern California, sponsor, trauma, treatment, using, verbal abuse, writing
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somewhere else
I will probably be posting about rehab a lot this month. I went in April. I asked my boyfriend to ask his therapist for recommendations and he suggested a program in Minnesota. That sounds so calm: I asked him. It … Continue reading
year
Today I have one year sober. There was a time when I thought, without question, that this was impossible. There were other times when I didn’t think it would be this hard. I am grateful to be alive. I am … Continue reading
Posted in what it's like now
Tagged addiction, alcoholism, gratitude, holidays, one year sober, recovery, recovery milestones, sober, sobriety
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in real life
On Wednesday, I will have had a year sober. It makes me anxious. Not for fear of relapse, though that’s there, but something else. I’m afraid I’m not doing it right. I still think I’m supposed to be someone else. … Continue reading
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Tagged AA meetings, addiction, Alcoholics Anonymous, alcoholism, fear, fears, home group, meeting, meetings, one year sober, recovery, relapse, sober, sobriety
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only recover
I was driving home and listening to a pop song about abuse and the cycle of abuse. She says: “You never thought about anyone else, you just saw your pain, and now I cry in the middle of the night … Continue reading
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Tagged abuse, addiction, alcoholism, cycle of abuse, healing, pop songs, recovery, sobriety, suicide, trauma
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