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Tag Archives: relapse
in real life
On Wednesday, I will have had a year sober. It makes me anxious. Not for fear of relapse, though that’s there, but something else. I’m afraid I’m not doing it right. I still think I’m supposed to be someone else. … Continue reading
Posted in what it's like now
Tagged AA meetings, addiction, Alcoholics Anonymous, alcoholism, fear, fears, home group, meeting, meetings, one year sober, recovery, relapse, sober, sobriety
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out
Last night, I went to a bar. I ordered a diet coke and the bartender said “One of those nights?” and I said “Yeah,” with a sigh, even though I didn’t really know what he meant. Even though it had … Continue reading
Posted in travel, what happened
Tagged AA meetings, addiction, Alcoholics Anonymous, alcoholism, Dublin, going out, holidays, meeting, meetings, relapse, St. Patrick's Day
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11 months
A couple days ago, I reached eleven months sober. A year is coming, and a dark thought occurs to me: a year would be enough. A year and I can relapse. And I can come back. There’s no part of … Continue reading
Posted in what it's like now
Tagged addiction, alcoholism, putting recovery first, recovery, rehab, relapse, sobriety
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you never know
One of the reasons I went to treatment was because I quit my job to write and didn’t spend one day in 5 months writing. Not one hour. I woke up on March 1st and looked at the calendar on … Continue reading
Posted in what happened, what it's like now
Tagged addiction, alcoholism, benefits of sobriety, control, fear, literature, not knowing, recovery, rehab, relapse, sponsor, therapist, therapy, treatment, wasting time, writing
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New York
Recently I took a trip to New York City. I went to a meeting in SoHo. I still haven’t decided if I should name the meetings I go to, or leave the names out to increase the chances for anonymity. … Continue reading
