Tag Archives: Alcoholics Anonymous

Rancho Cucamonga

When I return to Southern California, to the inland empire, I feel at home. In my body. It’s not an emotional thing. It’s not a relief. I just remember it. The air. Dry and warm. Soft even, with smog. Air … Continue reading

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far

Before I went to rehab, I went to AA to hear people’s stories. I would listen to people who ended up homeless, all of their “yets” having by then transpired. They talked about shooting up under a bridge, selling themselves, … Continue reading

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Minnesota

I went back to Minnesota last week, to visit the treatment center I went to a year and a half ago. When I was in treatment, it was April and it was still snowing. All the branches were bare. In … Continue reading

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Cancún

I went to Cancún, Mexico 3 months out of rehab. I had booked the trip with my boyfriend and two friends, impulsively, and there were no refunds. It was low season for tourists, or rather, it was not spring break, … Continue reading

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Long Beach, CA

I walked down the middle of the street with my friend, who I think of as my brother, who I used to live with, in college, when I started drinking. We were walking slow, because he had just had knee surgery … Continue reading

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for my sister, part I

A few weeks ago, my sister sent me an email about my one year. She said she loved me and I said it, too. I hadn’t heard from her in a while. I left her a voicemail on her birthday … Continue reading

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stopped working

The other day I heard someone say: “I didn’t come to AA because of the consequences.  I came because the party was over.” Last night, at a meeting, the speaker said that her rock bottom wasn’t blacking out every night. … Continue reading

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