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far

Before I went to rehab, I went to AA to hear people’s stories. I would listen to people who ended up homeless, all of their “yets” having by then transpired. They talked about shooting up under a bridge, selling themselves, … Continue reading

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Minnesota

I went back to Minnesota last week, to visit the treatment center I went to a year and a half ago. When I was in treatment, it was April and it was still snowing. All the branches were bare. In … Continue reading

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stopped working

The other day I heard someone say: “I didn’t come to AA because of the consequences.  I came because the party was over.” Last night, at a meeting, the speaker said that her rock bottom wasn’t blacking out every night. … Continue reading

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in real life

On Wednesday, I will have had a year sober. It makes me anxious. Not for fear of relapse, though that’s there, but something else. I’m afraid I’m not doing it right. I still think I’m supposed to be someone else. … Continue reading

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out

Last night, I went to a bar. I ordered a diet coke and the bartender said “One of those nights?” and I said “Yeah,” with a sigh, even though I didn’t really know what he meant. Even though it had … Continue reading

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geographics

A man at this meeting said he was going to move to Minnesota to get away from his high stress job and all the people he knows that he parties with and all the places he’d go to score or … Continue reading

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