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far

Before I went to rehab, I went to AA to hear people’s stories. I would listen to people who ended up homeless, all of their “yets” having by then transpired. They talked about shooting up under a bridge, selling themselves, … Continue reading

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Minnesota

I went back to Minnesota last week, to visit the treatment center I went to a year and a half ago. When I was in treatment, it was April and it was still snowing. All the branches were bare. In … Continue reading

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Cancún

I went to Cancún, Mexico 3 months out of rehab. I had booked the trip with my boyfriend and two friends, impulsively, and there were no refunds. It was low season for tourists, or rather, it was not spring break, … Continue reading

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for my sister, part I

A few weeks ago, my sister sent me an email about my one year. She said she loved me and I said it, too. I hadn’t heard from her in a while. I left her a voicemail on her birthday … Continue reading

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stopped working

The other day I heard someone say: “I didn’t come to AA because of the consequences.  I came because the party was over.” Last night, at a meeting, the speaker said that her rock bottom wasn’t blacking out every night. … Continue reading

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in real life

On Wednesday, I will have had a year sober. It makes me anxious. Not for fear of relapse, though that’s there, but something else. I’m afraid I’m not doing it right. I still think I’m supposed to be someone else. … Continue reading

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out

Last night, I went to a bar. I ordered a diet coke and the bartender said “One of those nights?” and I said “Yeah,” with a sigh, even though I didn’t really know what he meant. Even though it had … Continue reading

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