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year

Today I have one year sober. There was a time when I thought, without question, that this was impossible. There were other times when I didn’t think it would be this hard. I am grateful to be alive. I am … Continue reading

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in real life

On Wednesday, I will have had a year sober. It makes me anxious. Not for fear of relapse, though that’s there, but something else. I’m afraid I’m not doing it right. I still think I’m supposed to be someone else. … Continue reading

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only recover

I was driving home and listening to a pop song about abuse and the cycle of abuse. She says: “You never thought about anyone else, you just saw your pain, and now I cry in the middle of the night … Continue reading

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11 months

A couple days ago, I reached eleven months sober. A year is coming, and a dark thought occurs to me: a year would be enough. A year and I can relapse. And I can come back. There’s no part of … Continue reading

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something spiritual

I’m trying to say something about belonging. About what drinking did for me. About feeling tapped in to human experience. About not feeling alone. It’s about a buzz. About things making me laugh. About not caring. I want to talk … Continue reading

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Puerto Rico

I missed the sunset in Esperanza, a beach town on the Caribbean side of Vieques, where it is supposed to be the most beautiful. I sat eating fish and chips and waiting for the sun to drop, but it was … Continue reading

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brave

At an event for the City Arts & Lectures series in San Francisco, Miranda July explained why she used uncomfortable and awkward interactions in her films. She said that the comfortable was already known, so why even bother? The uncomfortable … Continue reading

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