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Before I went to rehab, I went to AA to hear people’s stories. I would listen to people who ended up homeless, all of their “yets” having by then transpired. They talked about shooting up under a bridge, selling themselves, … Continue reading

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Minnesota

I went back to Minnesota last week, to visit the treatment center I went to a year and a half ago. When I was in treatment, it was April and it was still snowing. All the branches were bare. In … Continue reading

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for my sister, part I

A few weeks ago, my sister sent me an email about my one year. She said she loved me and I said it, too. I hadn’t heard from her in a while. I left her a voicemail on her birthday … Continue reading

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somewhere else

I will probably be posting about rehab a lot this month. I went in April. I asked my boyfriend to ask his therapist for recommendations and he suggested a program in Minnesota. That sounds so calm: I asked him. It … Continue reading

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11 months

A couple days ago, I reached eleven months sober. A year is coming, and a dark thought occurs to me: a year would be enough. A year and I can relapse. And I can come back. There’s no part of … Continue reading

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new year’s eve

I told my friend I felt guilty because I didn’t complete any writing projects this year. I felt like I wasted 2011. She disagreed. Three things that happened in 2011: I stopped drinking. I went to rehab. I committed to … Continue reading

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making it

A woman in a meeting the other night said that we’re not supposed to make it. Alcoholics and addicts – we’re not supposed to recover.  I like this thought. It drives me sometimes, reminds me how hard I have to … Continue reading

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