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New York again

I’m in New York again. I went to a meeting on my first full day here and was asked to speak. In AA, they pretty much tell you there is no other option than to say yes when this happens. … Continue reading

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what is

I was driving down Highway 1, in the morning. The waves and the fog were churning, in the same color and at the same speed. I remembered the lake next to the Zen Center in Minneapolis, even though, when I … Continue reading

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first real day

I woke up feeling hungover. My head hurt, I was dehydrated, and I felt a sense of dread. I didn’t drink last night, as I haven’t every night for over 8 months, but still felt it, the “sick heat of … Continue reading

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you never know

One of the reasons I went to treatment was because I quit my job to write and didn’t spend one day in 5 months writing. Not one hour. I woke up on March 1st and looked at the calendar on … Continue reading

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geographics

A man at this meeting said he was going to move to Minnesota to get away from his high stress job and all the people he knows that he parties with and all the places he’d go to score or … Continue reading

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too high a bottom

Sometimes I feel like I had too high a bottom. I’ve heard people in meetings say this, too. I haven’t had a machete in one hand and shotgun on the counter next to me as I drank straight from a … Continue reading

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the holidays

I’ve been thinking about rehab. Dreaming about it. Today I thought of my best friend from rehab. He sent me a text a few days ago asking me to call him and I did and he didn’t answer and he … Continue reading

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